I’ve been a paedophile since I was nine or ten. (Something to consider for all of those who merely focus on paedophile men). At that age I was attracted to 4-5 year olds. Borderline paedophilia, paedophilia none the less as dictated by the law.

If I had to be besieged by a sexual deviancy, then I wish it homosexuality and not paedophilia. But, that is not the hand that was dealt to me. Being on the registy, I’ve been victimised (and I will use this word) by a community far removed from where my crime took place. I had to stop going to church and was threatened that if I pick my kids up from daycare that I will be thrown into jail. My neighbours point fingers at me and have pretty slandered my name. Why? Because they drew their conclusions from the registry. Even the fact that I have two kids was met with scorn: “I hope he’s not hurting those kids.” was what I overheard on lady saying.

So, my supposed trying to re-enter Society as a productive member of Society is merely a fairy tale existence. Because of this reality, I’ve become angry and extremely antisocial. Relying on the fact that you never know your enemies until it’s too late, so I strongly feel that everyone is my enemy. Less, I let my guard down a let one in.

My rage against Society only deepened when I learnt that my registration, once for only 10 years, has been been uppped to life. So my plans of truly enjoying life with my kids by attending school plays and pageants and other activities has been thrown out of the window.

I don’t want sympathy. I’m not innocent (but then again, no one is truly innocent so I’m pretty sure the Holy Rollers know what to do with that innocent finger of theirs). I made some regrettable mistakes in my past. A lot of things in my life I’d love to change. But I sure as hell don’t want to be a victim. In the end, I am a victim. We are victims. When the Nazis made Jews wear incriminating yellow stars on their clothing simply for being Jewish, were they not victims? And don’t hand me that crap about them being “innocent”. Some of them were probably embezzlers, adulterers, thieves, and maybe even a rapist or two (and dare I say a child rapist) who just hadn’t been caught.

I see life through different perspectives. I have been on both side of the debate: A sex offender and now a father. No one wants to side with the sex offender, it is political and social suicide to do so. The media has made it that way.Everyone is blinded by disgust and hate. Our culture preaches love and acceptance, and the need to forgive and move on with to better things. Yet, they victimise a group of people because they screwed up some time ago. We say nobody’s perfect, yet we mark those that fall.

I’m am grateful that I am able to understand exactly what is inside of me and find ways to unleash that anger and hurt.

The killing of a child by a RSO? I’ve mulled that over so many times, asking myself Why would a person do that? I asked myself the hardest question of all: Would I be willing to do that? And I had to be completely honest with myself. I say no because believe it or not, I am empathic to others. Some would disagree, but I’m sure those persons don’t make it a habit to think outside their comfort zones.

But, I think I understand why another RSO is more likely to kill a child as one poster has already brought up. Most certainly, the killing of the child is a result of 1.) a attempt at secrecy and 2.) if discovered, the perpetrator hopes to face the death penalty. The problem is that the homework doesn’t get done. Death penalties are usually sought for extreme, well-planned, thought-out murders. Basically, anything under a first degree murder and you’re most likely looking at a mere life sentence.

If the case has enough media coverage, then the perp will be isolated from the rest of the population and the taxpayers will foot the bill.

I attest that paedophilia is a sexual orientation. I believe it because I suffer with it. However, I don’t see man-child sex as viable, as much as I’d like it to be. There is a very thin line in such a relationship. A very thin line that shifts with each individual child. The boy I performed oral sex on was want is considered a YF or “young friend”. We knew each other for two years. I was arrested when my yf confided in a buddy that we were in a relationship. His buddy immediately told someone else who told someone else. And eventually an adult found out and I was arrested.

Today, I’m still friends with my yf. He’s a man now, married with kids of his own. He keeps telling me how bad he feels because he never wanted me to get into trouble. I keep telling him that I knew the costs, and that I don’t regret it one bit.

How is the registry fair? Being on the registry is hell. And no one gives a damn because they aren’t the ones whose lives are displayed for the world the see. For a crime that (in my case) happened over 10 years ago. Everyone on the registry aren’t child rapists. To say so is narrow-minded and ignorant. There are 15 year olds who have to register for life for having sex with a 13 year old student! Five years from now, you’ll see that same teenager on the registry and you and a whole new generation of parents and activists will look at his face lassify him as a child rapist. Forever.

The registry is a joke. If I wanted to molest a child, I have ample opportunity to do such on a day-to-day basis. Hospitalisation? Why? If I’m determined to try and make the most of the haphazard life that’s been handed to me why should I be committed to a hospital? Beside I might be a threat? In that case, we should hospitalise everyone drinking in a bar, lest they get into a car and kill someone.

Sorry to barge in, just passing through.

By your logic harsh prison sentences for anyone will lead to killing victims. You do understand people decide to kill people, and that they wouldn’t have to worry about being on a registry if they weren’t raping people. You are excusing rape by saying “at least they didn’t kill them” which makes you a degenerate.

Tell me how it’s false that you have argued for raping children. i recall seeing a TV interview with you were you advocated adult child sex.

But as I said, you’re need for attention from people disgusted by you is not something I will be fulfilling. Run back to “boychat” with the rest f the scum.

(1) They serve their allotted sentence for their crime.
(2) They are then civilly-committed, for no crime, to a hospital. It is a contrived, post-facto, pre-crime issue.

This is all available on-line.

“The RSO system is responsible for killing minors” … an increase in, yes.

Not my source (although I do subscribe to the proposition), but it was suggested by Lanning, just this week. When there is nothing to lose (being a RSO, for many), killing the victim offers the best chance of escape.

This is also available on-line.

“care little for what you desire, being that you’re a child rapists ”

False.

“You have argued, more than once, that raping children is acceptable”

False.

“they are rapists and degenerates”

They are not all rapists (’degenerates’ is an archaic term, meaning nothing in these times) …

,,, and, yes, unless I say I ‘believe’ in something, then it is true.

Drop the adhoms and try a debate, it looks much better for you.

There is no shame in being proven incorrect, that is how we achieve wisdom.

Nigel.

The RSO system is responsible for killing minors, sex offenders are. And none of the claims I make are false. Can you say the same?

Given that you live in the USA, you have the most draconian RSO system on the planet … recently and once again, almost certainly, leading to the unfortunate and unacceptable death of another minor.

You are ranting and making false claims, again – it is a pity, as I give you more credit than that, or I would not be devoting any time or effort time, here.

Nigel.

I care little for what you desire, being that you’re a child rapists which means you put your own selfish desires for sexual gratification over the child’s desire to not be abused

I suggest you return to trolling the Absolute Zero site if you need attention so badly, but I will not hodl a polite discussion with someone so vile. You have argued, more than once, that raping children is acceptable. This is literally evil. Why would any rational person do anything but shun you?

As for your comment on my education “Dr”-Yawn. I don’t need the validation of people on the Internet. Especially of degenerates and perverts.

Nigel.